Today I am thankful...

• that I have Emma to remind me that I am neither as held-together as the face I present to the world, nor as falling-apart as I seem to myself
• that I have a sister who gets me
• that I have good friends to go knit and spin with every week
• that I have a job
• that I have a roof over my head and food in the fridge
• that cats only require a lap, a food bowl, and a clean litterbox to return copious purring, kneading, and comfort
• that I am crafty and will always have something to amuse myself with, even if I sometimes only feel like surfing the internet about those interests

Today was the kind of day when the question "How's it goin'?", asked just-in-passing in the hallway at work, feels like a trick question.

It's a conversation filler, really, the same as saying "Hey!" or "Good morning!" (another trick question, by the way- maybe your morning is good...), and while I know the socially acceptable response is "Fine", I really struggle with it lately.

Things are so completely Not Fine with me right now that when the "How's it goin'?" is tossed my way I have to stop myself from giving a true answer, which would be Too Much Information and not what the passing coworker wants to know in any case.  They are just saying good morning, not really asking how things in my life are going today.

I suppose I could say something to the effect of "Well, I got out of bed this morning, so I guess that's one point to me."

Instead I just say "Fine."

Lately, this song speaks to me:

"The scars of your love, they leave me breathless..."

Oh yes.